You take and treat the one you love the way you know you shouldn't and then you watch her go out with someone who is treating her the way you should have. The guilt keeps making you bleed and more so the lost chance of being with someone you truly love:
Let any kind of Kingdom come
for teasing tomorrow will not hide
me from what I have done
from your tears now sharing my eyes
I shouldn't have said
I shouldn't have did
you shouldn't have dared
can you ever forgive?
and now you...
watch me watch you go out with him
watch me watch you go out with him
watch me watch you go out with him
watch me watch you go out with him
your new lover is a bum
and you looking serious just terrifies
for is this reality who turns
to tell you what I've always denied
I should have said
I should have did
I should have dared
can you ever forgive
and now you...
watch me watch you go out with him
watch me watch you go out with him
watch me watch you go out with him
watch me watch you go out with him
are you really smiling
are you really trying
does his being really illuminate your soul
my turn for crying
my turn for sighing
these aching red hands can't let go